I don't believe in fun

I don'r believe in fun.  Sorry, but I don't.  Some people would be like, "Sorry, not so sorry," but I'm not "not so sorry."  I am sorry.  I don't believe in fun.  And it kinda makes me sad.  Because it kinda makes other people sad, like my kids.  And my hubby.  They all like fun.  And I just don't.  Anytime anyone suggests an activity, I'm like, "well, what's the objective?"  And they're like, "To have fun."  And i'm like, "what?"  Cuz I really just don't get it.  I don't get fun.  Why would you do something for the fun of it?  Even more, why would you spend money for fun? I get spending money on rest, or rejuvenation for going on a vacation or even to do something you've never done that will stretch your limits like sky diving or bungee jumping, although i don'g understand why you'd want to spend that much money for potential death, but that's different, so...I just don't get the idea of doing those things for fun.   

What is fun anyway?  Have you thought about that?  What does it mean when you say I want to have fun.  Is fun something you can have?  Is it a tangible thing? Or an experience? Or an emotion?

(Maybe this is a good time to tell you that I am a psychology nerd. Okay, psychology dweeb. Okay, if psychology had collectors mini-figures, they'd be all over my bedroom . . . wait a minute . . . psychology mini-figures . . . huh.)

Cuz if fun is a thing that I can stick on my mantle and be like, see, this is me having fun, then I could get it.  It's something to show off and have and hold to remind you of how much money you once had before you spent it on having fun. I get that.

And if fun is an experience like having...a shower...then I get that, too.  (That's what I say, I say i'm gonna have a shower instead of i'm gonna take a shower.  It just sounds less criminal.)  But if fun is like a shower, then I really get that, cuz i need some of that every day.

If fun is an emotion, I kinda get that, too, cuz we all want to feel something.  We say things like, "We're going to Disneyland just for the fun of it."  When what we really mean is, "We're going to Disneyland just for the dopamine rushes."

But doing expensive stuff that you don't really care about anyway just so you can say you've done it or so you can have a rush, I just don't get.  I can enjoy free things while still getting stuff done.

Like music...I enjoy singing along with Aretha Franklin's RESPECT while I clean the entire house by myself.  To me that's fun.