Jane is tired of being alone, Jane wants to move on. She has been in limbo for a very long time and the process is old to her. She has set herself up as the unofficial official of the Booth because there is nothing else to do. She is not interested in forming a relationship, because she has been hurt by one before. Or two. She keeps to herself except when on official Booth business. She is not going to wait around forever and do nothing. She will use the Booth to control the only thing she can--her own experience and her own time in hell. She feels like she's in hell because she can't progress.
Jane wants to love and trust. She wants to move on with her life. She wants someone to care about her, and love her and to be inspired by her the way that she cares about and loves and is inspired by each person who arrives. She wants her life to be meaningful, she wants a family of her own. She wants to belong.
Jane is afraid that no matter what she does, she will never belong. She is afraid of being stuck here forever. She is afraid that if she doesn't figure this out by herself, and now, that nothing will ever ever change and she will be alone and lonely forever. Jane is scared of connection. Jane is afraid of anything going wrong and breaking the Booth because it means she will never progress.
Jane needs to feel connected. Jane needs attention and to be able to give attention. Jane wants more than anything to know who she is and what her life is about.
FACT:
Jane has been in limbo for the longest of anyone she knows.
Jane thinks she knows how the Booth works.
Jane is ethnically ambiguous in a world where most of the other people are European descent.
Jane wants her paper; she believes it will help her remember.
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